I never get over the fears about the first day of classes. Now that I am on the other end of the classroom, I still get more jittery and nervous about the first day. I wonder, what are the students going to think? Are they going to be interested? Are they going to care?
I think about these things because of the student evaluations at the end of the term, I wonder if students know that these actually do play a role in whether or not a lecturer gets hired or not or advances towards a professor position. I want to ultimately teach and be on the tenure track, but I need to get on the ball. I’m already jittery about first day teaching, about publish or perish and about not disappointing myself–or about disappointing my students.
Blegh. 12 hours and I bite the bullet and start teaching for this term.